Return Home After The Fall

A couple weeks ago, I watched the movie, “As It Is In Heaven” with a gathering of friends. It is full of rich symbolism and powerful insights about relationships, community, and sharing your unique "note" with the world.


You meet the main character as young boy practicing his violin in a wheat field when the local bullies track him down and beat him up. All he wants is to open people’s hearts with music and this act of violence breaks his heart. To protect him, his mother moves them to another town where he practices and practices and grows up to become a world-renowned conductor in high demand.

As an adult, he falls further and further from his dream and suffers for quite some time. One evening, during a performance, he walks off the stage and collapses and the doctor tells him his heart is failing.

In the next scene his agent refers to a concert scheduled seven years out and in that moment something shifts for the conductor. He listens to the invitation to return home to love and takes the leap that changes everything.


He quits his life as a conductor and returns to his hometown and leads the church choir. He shows them how to each find their own unique note and sing together in harmony. He lives out his mission to open hearts with music and in the process opens his own heart and returns to a state of harmony.

If you haven't seen it, I invite you to watch and notice what you see and feel as his "note" ripples out and touches everyone around him. Oh, and it’s a Swedish movie with sub-titles. Have tissues nearby. Those Swedes know how to make a movie!


Before watching the movie, a wise woman shared a framework of understanding for the journey of life that resonated deeply with me. She showed us the movie to demonstrate it in action.

I invite you to open your heart to oneness and harmony and share through your unique note. If we all listen for the call and take the leap, imagine the possibilities of a world in a state of harmony. (Link to download the diagram document.)

Here's what I see. Each circle represents a state of being. The top circle represents oneness and harmony and I believe we are all born in this state. Then through challenge, heartbreak or trauma we fall into the bottom circle of separation and suffering and it is our thoughts about those experiences and resistance to feeling what wants to happen that keep us stuck spinning around and around.

The main character in the movie experienced several challenges and traumas in his life where he fell into the lower circle. He looped around and around for years suffering until that moment with his agent and he felt the pull to return home. The movie is a beautiful story of his journey home to love and harmony.

You may have recently fallen and feel stuck going around and around looping in the lower circle. As souls, we asked for this human experience and sometimes it gets really uncomfortable, especially when you you don't see a way out...yet! I've been there stuck many times saying, "Really, I asked for this?" Yep. You may think "I don't ever want to fall again." I hear you. As much as you in this moment may not want to ever fall again, I believe we will all continue to fall and that's okay. It's also completely okay to feel whatever emotion comes up for you when you do fall. Feeling is being human.

I see the separation as part of our maturation process and natural evolution of consciousness. Each fall provides the opportunity to practice taking the leap back to oneness through kindness, self-care and self-compassion. With practice and dropping the resistance, it becomes easier to move through the transition from separation to oneness.

My intention for sharing this framework is to bring light to the possibility and potential to find your way back home after a fall and show you that you always have the choice to lead your own experience. YAY! You've got this! I promise you, there is another way.

So, what is one act of self-care or self-compassion you can give yourself today?


If you’re coming up blank or don’t think you have time for self-care, here are some suggestions to get you started.

  1. Return to a sense of play in whatever form that looks like for you.
  2. Take a nap.
  3. Go for a walk.
  4. Call a friend you’ve wanted to connect with for a chat.
  5. Spend quality time with your beloved.
  6. Watch birds fly in patterns.
  7. Take a bath.
  8. Prepare a healthy, nourishing meal for yourself.
  9. Read a book you’ve wanted to read.
  10. Plan a personal retreat as simple as spending the afternoon in nature or as involved as spending a week trekking in a foreign land.

I would love the hear about you're favorite self-care ideas and invite you to share in the comments below.


Self-compassion may be challenging if you have a loud self-critic, feel unworthy, or just haven’t practiced for a long time. To develop the practice of self-compassion and encourage new neural patterns, try this simple method I learned from one of my favorite people and neuropsychologist, Dr. Rick Hanson.

  1. Find the sense of being cared about by someone else, someone whom you have felt loved by in your life.
  2. Bring to mind someone you naturally feel compassion for like a child or loved one.
  3. Sink into the physical experience of compassion in your body, locate the sensation in your body and stay there for a while.
  4. Then shift the compassion to yourself, perhaps with phrases like: “May I not suffer. May the pain of this moment come pass on (compassion).”

The root of compassion is compassion for oneself. ~ Pema Chodron

I also highly recommend checking out Koelle Simpson's teleclass where she provides a beautiful explanation of the harmony of life.

May you find your way home after the fall.